Hi Everyone

So I’m currently 4 weeks and 6 days pregnant, extremely early on to be jumping around excited and I’m even more anxious as I’ve got one daughter already but have had multiple miscarriages afterwards (at 5 weeks, 6 weeks and 13 weeks). I feel ok about the previous miscarriages (as upsetting as they were at the time) as I try to believe ‘what is ever meant to be, is meant to be’ however now I am pregnant again I have found myself studying every symptom and I keep checking for any potential bleeds constantly. No bleeding yet but doesn’t stop me checking!

Although I’m only at 4 weeks and 6 days, I realise that it is very early days and I may not feel much until I’m 6 weeks and the sickness kicks in (like it did with my daughter)! I have currently been experiencing breast and nipple pain but on a daily basis worry about the extent it is hurting.. if it is more or less than the day before … aka to decide if it’s another miscarriage or not! I know there is nothing I can do so have been trying to distract my thoughts and have tried to stop myself thinking otherwise. We have an early scan booked for 8 weeks but it’s a long 3 and a half weeks to wait to find out if everything is going on the right direction .. or not! How have other people managed to get through this stage other than gritting my teeth and waiting it out? It’s a cruel and worrying wait.

Any advice or words of support much appreciated. Thank you everyone. X