I’ve been thinking about moving to another state for over a year or two now. I’ve been at my current place for about 8 months now and I just have this urge to move so bad. It’s not that my current home isn’t big enough or anything like that I just want something new. Also, I want to move away from these people I call family. I feel like they don’t genuinely support me as I do them. I have a newborn well she’s 6 months now and a 4 yr old too. I just feel such a disconnect between my kids and other family. My mom acts so weird now all of a sudden. She treats my kids as if they don’t exist sometimes. Granted, she watches them when I ask her but it always just seems like there’s a problem with her.

Also, one of my sisters I haven’t talked to in over 4 yrs and the other is toxic. She always try to down talk things about me in a way that makes it seem like she isn’t down talking but in reality I can read between the lines and see what she’s really saying. She gloats over negative things about me. And I’m nothing but supportive. I don’t down talk nobody because I’m not that type of person.

This family sits up and talks about me when I’m not around and I can’t understand why when I’m not a bad person at all. I honestly don’t like this family and I don’t want to be apart of it anymore. I just want to move away and never look back.

Only thing is I will be moving to a new state and I won’t know anyone there. I’m a little scared of that I’m not gonna lie. But I just want to start over. I work for the gov’t so I think it’s really possible to transfer locations. So I know I’ll have a job and I’ll just need to find a daycare that’ll work around my hours. I want new beginnings I honestly do. I don’t want my kids growing up feeling self conscious because of this family making their self esteem low. Ugh should I do it ?