I had a break down today. I told my husband I am not feeling loved by him or appreciated. That I have been thinking about a divorce because at least then every other weekend I could get sleep and you'd step up to be a dad.

He told me he has been avoiding our home because I am suckling the joy out of him. That he isn't avoiding our children but he is avoiding me. I told him I'd be less of a kill joy if my basic needs were met. Such as sleep. That I'm begging him at this point and he doesn't care. I'd be joyful too if I didn't have a care in the world and my head wasn't pounding from no sleep.

He told me he needs to be more praised. I told him I'm doing my best but I honestly cannot fake my happiness and ignore my basic needs to candy coat how you are treating me.

He told me I need to start asking other people but him for help with the kids. Backstory we don't have much family to ask everyone is very old and can't help much. I can ask friends but it's hard each time I have asked they couldn't help, making me less likely to ask again. I don't ask things from people and so I know when I ask my husband I am burnt out.

I'm going to bed now at 3:45 in the afternoon. He is going to take the kids and figure the night out. I cried and I'm so tired. He didn't say he loved me. He didn't offer for me to sleep I had to basically beg for it. I have allowed him to behave like this for so long it has sucked my soul out of me and I have nothing more to give my family.