Afraid to go back to everyday life

Caroline
I lost my baby at 16wks on the 23rd Nov. I have been signed off work until the end of jan and I haven't really left the house except for dropping my kids to the school gate in the morning. I haven't wanted to put make up or tan on and i look awful without both but I'm afraid to go back to my old everyday routines. I have friends who are trying to get me to meet them for a drink but even though I can drink now I feel like i shouldn't. Is anyone else afraid to go back to everyday life after their loss?