Tw re miscarriage: I am exhausted

After 13 months of trying, we’ve two miscarriages which I know means at least we can get pregnant but it’s still an awful thing to go through, I am absolutely exhausted. And there are couples who have been through so much more.

The thought of trying and all that comes with it sounds daunting but not actively trying and not knowing where I am in my cycle seems harder. The thought of another miscarriage is terrifying but knowing my friend is due soon and another is starting to try I am terrified of how to be happy for them without being sad for myself.

Making babies is hard work and I haven’t even got past 9 weeks yet 😢😢