Hi I need some reassurance ladies

I have had full previa since 20 weeks and I have bleed 3 times abd been hospitalized 3 times for a week each time been on bed rest since 20 weeks and now I'm 29 and 5 days...I feel like I lay in bed in fear everyday I'm gonna bleed out or baby will how do I continue to seal with the fear everyday my c section is booked at 36 and 6 days oh and I have a placenta accessory anyone had this how can I get my mind more positive I'm so sacred ....anyone ??