TTC 37yrs old

After a very rough divorce with a man that to this day still terrifies me, I met the man of my dreams. We decided after a year we wanted to try and have a baby. From Jan to May we tried, then my doctor put me on clomid. 4 months of clomid and nothing. I got a message from my doctor saying my progesterone level was 17.5, the best yet and indicated ovulation. I had such high hopes for this month, until I started my period this morning. Now I can’t stop crying. 7 months of trying and nothing so far. I’m devastated