It's officially over. Just had my D&C today. I'm no longer pregnant..

It was finally hitting me 2 days ago. Went to target to look at toddler car seats and saw all the baby stuff around me. That wall I had around my heart and emotions started to crack. Took everything not to cry in the store.

My 4th D&C. I did not cry at the hospital. I felt like I was on autopilot. Heard the nurses talking, I should have been 12 weeks and 1 day. My emotional state barely hanging on. My daughter does not know what I am going through and I'm staying strong for her. It's not easy though...