I’ve been going to therapy at least three times now and we can’t exactly figure out what’s wrong with me. I brought to their attention some bipolar disorder based videos, just to further express some of the feelings I feel when I’m in a hypomania/manic episode. “They” want to rule that out until further evaluation which I understand and did not want to self diagnose. It just really hurts me that we can’t figure out why I do what I do? Why I feel how I feel, what’s my diagnosis! I know that I most likely have anxiety, but everything else is unclear and I could cry because I just want to have a name to my issues so that I don’t feel like I’m crazy or invalid or even wasting my time. I’ve been feeling really high lately to where it feels unnatural…but I don’t know what’s the difference between feeling normal or feeling like I’m suppressing to please everyone and going through the motions..