Ugh. Can I vent here?

I’ve been gearing up for another IVF cycle after a failed one earlier this year. All was good until I reviewed my recent hormone tests. I was curious to see my progesterone data for all the cycles I’ve done. My levels are usually in the teens before my period and very low in follicular phase as expected. The one time I was pregnant and taking progesterone supplements, my levels were around 30. Looking back at all my results, I had naturally high progesterone at 29 right before the cycle of my last retrieval! My protocol included estrogen/testosterone priming during mid luteal phase before the start of the next cycle. I can’t help but wonder if the meds I was taking prevented a possible pregnancy. And now I’ll never know. ☹️ 😫