Any help please

Jessenia

Hey all. Before I get attacked from people saying “get over it” “he can do what he wants” “he’s not your boyfriend anymore”. I would like to say that it’s easier said than done I was with my ex of 5 years and he cheated on me and I took him back thinking that he would change. He cheated on me with this girl at a party and he never dated her. He was just messing around with her while talking to other girls as well. After he got tired of her he of course went back to me and she knew that too. Now we are no longer together and I saw that he added her back on Instagram. I remember him telling me shit about her that she was so controlling and would spam call him all the time. That she was crazy and going around asking his friends where he was and why he wasn’t answering her. She’s also slept around with other guys too. So I don’t understand how we would want to go back to that🥴 any words to help me feel any less like shit please? I would really appreciate.