i think he's going to break up with me. i'm going to be sad, i'm already sad, but i really could use this as an opportunity to be alone for a good while. i haven't fully been alone like i thought i had been. i always had some guy to go to, but it'll be another step closer to being the independent woman i want to be. we've known each other for over a year, dating officially for only little over a month. i'm not thinking much of it, but i'm tired of the repeats of not being able to focus fully on my school, and it's important to me that it's my senior year. i know i'll be okay. just scared with how he's going to go through with it. he still hasnt talked to me, but i'm giving it til midnight tonight to then block him from everything and move on. i'm tired of the anxiety. i've been through this one too many times. i refuse to let it take a toll on me again.