I'm not sure if I'm supposed to but I'm posting here because I know the people here are really supportive. I need some support and maybe a different perspective.

I'm so fucking stuck!

I've just been trying to make personal progress, eat right, work on my fitness, learn about my self. Be the person I want to be.

But my current situation.... I absolutely hate it. I'm moving from idaho to Nevada.  I don't have a job, so no money. I'm in debt to two people. I already looked for work but nobody will hire for temporary. If Rick (my SO) and I didn't get ahead of ourselves and left our jobs everything right now would not be at a stand still.

But then again we were supposed to be in Las Vegas by now. Now we are just stuck waiting until Josh (future roommate) comes along to get us.

Mean while we rely on Kevin and Chris (current roomates) for food and household things.

I promised myself never to let my livelihood Rest in someone else's hands because I know what happens every time. I barely even get the bare minimum. I get let down. 

All day everyday right now I have nothing to do. So I guess maybe I'm lazy because I could get up every morning, 7:00. I could do a morning routine, and go out and keep looking for some form of income.

But I don't.

I see no point in holding myself to a routine when it'll all be turned on its head in a week or two. I can't keep trying something that gives me the same result. I feel like it's absolutely useless.

I feel absolutely useless.

So I ask myself, "What are you going to do about it?"

I've already tried to find work, because I know a job will give me structure and income will bring a flow to the rest of it.

But I'm leaving soon.

Speak up! But now I'm complaining.

My resources are exhausted.

I have no connections.

What am I supposed to do?

The only idea I can think of is getting transportation. That means taking my driving test and going to twinfalls, look for work there.

But what's the point of having an idaho DL when I'm going to be moving to Nevada at anytime.

I guess as a last resort that's the best I can do.