Y’all… I really want to get excited about this baby but I can’t because I’m so scared that it won’t last. I’m 4 weeks tomorrow. When I found out a few days ago I was nervous, but now I’m fully convinced that I’m going to lose it.

I have a 3 year old but I lost two babies before him, and I just found out that insulin resistance makes the chances of MC go way up (which I have… so that’s great). I can’t get in to the doctor until next Friday and I’m worried that it’ll be too late to do anything like get on metformin or progesterone. I’m dreading going in to work and telling my boss and coworkers that I lost the baby (had to tell them ASAP because I work in a hospital and pregnant women don’t take care of patients on airborne precautions like COVID).

Is anyone else feeling super negative about their pregnancies?