So ive been with my boyfriend officially for 1 year this febuary. Its like weve been dating for alot longer because we've known eachother for almost 4 years and have been "seeing" eachother for about 2 and a half but never made it official til febuary. Anyways, i thought he was amazing...which he is a greattt guy. He is very smart, he shows my family respect, he will go out of his way for people, hes humble and independent, a very strong willed man. This year he bought a 3family house and we live on the first floor, my mom lives upstairs in her own apt. And my cousin lives downstairs. It all worked out. He lived with his mom for a while even tho he had plenty of money to live on his own; after that he stayed with me for a while at my house when i was staying with my mom. Mind you, this is my first love my first boyfriend. I was suprised my mom let him stay for a few months but it was because he was very respectful and she knew i never was all about guys at all or into the whole dating thing. But about 4 months after him staying with us he bought his own home. My mom wanted to move too so it worked out. During the time of him staying with me at my moms, my only sister, my big sister was murdered. She was only 21. She didnt live there with us anymore but i seen her everyday. I miss and love her sooo much!! He was there for me by my side through all of it, i cried on his shoulder. It was horrible and still to this day it kills me. That week my sister passed i found out i was pregnant. We were sooo happy!! I felt like it was my sister and i was hoping for a baby girl. I was a bit worried tho because during that time i was so stressed. 3 months later my baby had no heartbeat. That also hurt so bad ;/ since then ive had 2 more miscarriages. September i had one which was a chemical pregnancy & this month i had one at 6weeks. Ive started to lose some hope but i know it will happen someday. Whenever we argue, my boyfriend has started hitting me. Not while pregnant. Its like every time i have a miscarriage he starts arguing around that time and it gets very physical. He started punching my in my head....my body....throwing me around...holding my mouth shut so tight. Pulling me by my hair. Hes been accusing me of being up to something alot and i do absolutley nothing wrong to him. I talk to absolutley no one and i dont go anywhere & if i do im doing favors for my mom grandma or cousin and he knows all of them so he knows im not lying. He accused me of cheating but never had proof. Because there is none i never cheated. Im supposed to start nursing classes this week and he tells me i better not have any guys numbers and if i have any new girls numbers that he will call them to make sure theyre not guys. This morning he took my phone looked through it some more and of course found nothing because im not hiding anything. He deleted my pictures of him in my phone because he wasnt on my wallpaper on my phone. It was me and my sister. He said since hes not on the wallpaper that i need no pictures of him. He deleted my memories. He even deleted the folder that i had alllll my pictures in. Our vacation to Mexico together, pictures of my sister, pictures of my little 3 month baby bump i once had. All of it. He deleted my memories. I feel so lost and alone. From this morning i have a semi black eye and a bruise on my face. I know he loves me but of he trulyyyy did he wouldnt do this to me. Maybe i had miscarriages because its a sign that hes really not the one. I truly thought he was. Im so hurt and confused.