Dated @ 15

Engaged @ 18

Married @ 19

Divorced @ 22

Throughout our whole relationship we fought. From the beginning… but we loved each other. I know we did but we also loved the control we had over each other. I felt secure knowing that I had a man that would never leave me because he wanted to control me so bad.

This is just the ugly truth.

Eventually I got tired of him always kicking me out. I got tired of him putting his hands on me in ways that no one else would notice. I got tired of the cheating and then he claimed it wasn’t cheating because he didn’t put his dick in her… he only got a hand job, or head, or masturbated to her. I got tired of faking that I was happy and ok with it all.

I knew I didn’t want to be with him anymore when I would have to think of other men in order to get turned on.

I gave him one last chance. We started fresh. Moved states. Became more independent from family. Tried to focus on each other. But this just made me realize I couldn’t take it anymore. And I was alone in that relationship way before we moved.

I made him move back to our hone state with his parents. I divorced him as soon as I could.

I’m in the 6 month waiting period for it to finalize but I’m so relieved I don’t have that stress anymore.

I HAVE A QUESTION THOUGH!

Is it wrong that I started to date a guy not too long after I made him leave? I feel really comfortable and genuine with this new guy and I feel kinda vulnerable and weird that I’m in the process of getting a divorce.

He knows everything too. I didn’t keep him in the dark.