Honestly, I probably don’t even need advice but probably encouragement. I’ve been with this man for 5 years. We have a child together who is 4. My problem is he is always in and out of prison. Majority of our relationship is with him being in prison. I feel like I already did so many years in the system. I don’t think I’m mentally & physically there to hold somebody down again for so many years. He’s looking at a lot of time and I’m not sure what’s the outcome for him. Don’t get me wrong I do love him and he’s probably the best person I have came across relationship wise but at the same time, I feel like I’m missing out on a lot especially when trying to figure myself out.

I love sex and I cannot hide that fact, it’s something that’s been within and as I get older, I don’t have the patience to wait anymore.

I just want something regular and consistent. I probably don’t even want nothing at all but probably fun. How would I ever be able to experience life when I’m constantly holding somebody down in prison???

But it’s like on the other end, I don’t want him to feel like I don’t care about him because I do. I will forever make sure he is straight while he is in prison. I just feel bad because outside of our relationship, we are amazing friends and have always been there for eachother. I’m just scared to let him down and I’m scared to think I have abandoned him when I didn’t. It’s just that I have to live my life with no regrets nor guilt.

I need ways to tell him 😪 and I don’t know how!!