TTC with a good feeling for this month!

Here's my back story -

Early miscarriage - July 2017 at 6 weeks

Early miscarriage - November 2017 at 8 weeks

Stillborn (little boy) - August 2018 at 25 weeks

Neonatal loss (little boy) - July 2019 - August 2019 at 5 weeks old.

I am absolutely desperate to be a mum (nobody knows the desperation I have!) I religiously tracked my ovulation cycles in between each pregnancy (ovulation tests, bbt, apps etc. You name it, I've researched it! 😂)

Well since we lost our last little boy, and this stupid C virus started, we took a break from trying. For the first year or so, I had so much fun being able to do anything and everything without having limits. Since January, me and my partner agreed to start TTC again, yet I had no motivation to track (that combined with stress and forgetfulness as this year my sister and sister in law are both pregnant and due three weeks apart - September/October)

Well fast forward to last night, I had strong pains in right hip (I've never had ovulation pains), went to bed and was still having twinges on and off but thought no more of it. Woke up this morning to some twinges on my left side so I thought I'd do an ovulation test (oh BTW, my cycles are crazy so I would never be able to pin point without tracking) and low and behold, a blazing positive on an ovulation test. I've done three so far today, and each one has got stronger and stronger so you know.. I'm in for a good night 😂👌 BUT I have this really strong feeling that this could be my month!

I'm desperate for something good to happen to put a smile on my face this year and a BFP would be my ultimate happiness.

I just needed to get this off my chest, but please give me as much baby dust as you can. I really need it 🙏

Thanks in advance for reading my whole post. All I need now is to hear all your positive stories! Go! 😍