He stayed with me all night long

I am a chronic asthmatic and have been my entire life. I have the entire set up at home including a pulse ox machine.

If you don't know, a pulse ox machine tells you the amount of oxygen in your blood and it's supposed to be 98-100 or around that area.

Mine was 85, and when I got to the ER I was so much worse. First off I threw up everywhere just from the stress of trying so hard to breathe, like it was BAD I was puking and turning blue and they admitted me shortly after and I tested negative for COVID 5x

Why? Why was I tested 5 times? Because my lungs are so bad they resemble someone who has COVID. I do have severe pneumonia and I was so bad off that I'd just stop breathing in my sleep. It was so hard to breathe, and I was just so exhausted.. somewhere in my oblivion I'd find some sort of peace and hold onto it like "oh god, oh yes." And 5 seconds later I'm woken by like 5 people telling me that I stopped breathing and all these alarms are going off but I don't care. It had been 2 days and I just wanted to rest so bad but I couldn't. They wouldn't let me rest (back then resting I guess meant death like I just didn't want to try anymore and they wouldn't let me stop trying)

This man, this nurse, stayed by my side all night long. He talked to me even though I was so sick I was barely conscious and he kept shooting different things into my IV And then bringing others in and saying "no matter what we do, her pulse ox will not go up past 93% and if I leave her side it drops back into the 80s." (Oh my god I just re-read that and of course my dramatic ass stops breathing when I stop receiving attention and feel alone)

So he stayed with me until they transported me via ambulance to another hospital where I was put on oxygen and heart monitors and blood thinners and a whole lot of steroids and got better super quick.

I'll never ever forget how that man stayed at my bedside all night long like that. What I was going through was extremely scary and i had no way to express that. Every amount of effort I had in my entire existence went into TRYING to breathe to the point that just not breathing felt really really good. I would have died had I not gone to the ER that night.

It's just beyond me that this happened and it was traumatic and horrible and I will literally never forget that nurse as long as I live. He made me

Comfortable, he made me feel able to rest because I knew I was being watched and not left alone like that. He worked really really hard on me, they all did. I have never been in a state where I was really not fully able to communicate all of my needs but they were all met and I was allowed visitors so my mom came and sat with me and I do not remember that. I don't remember eating or bathing even though it happened. I wasn't on like anything that would make me high either I was just violently sick with pneumonia and almost died, like this was an example of how sick I was. My doctor at this hospital was a very tall and intimidating man, with a very very deep voice. I remember every single time he walked in, and the last time I saw him he said "such a good sign you're eating" and I said "I'm eating?" And I look over and I had taken a few bites of a sandwich that I literally had no idea was even there like being sick like that is wild. You just.. you're just in survival mode. You do what you can and what's necessary and memory is not necessary.

ETA. YA it was the dudes JOB, oh my god yall. I'm not sitting here and complaining I am literally talking about the level of care I received as someone who was on the verge of dying. I felt cared about, and I think he did an amazing job. Just let me have a moment jeez

He told me about his daughter and how I reminded him of her and he told me I had a great boyfriend and I shouldn't let go of him even though he snores really bad and at one point I tried telling him "if I could breathe I would laugh." But nothing came out but a choked out giggle but he got it and he giggled back.

He didn't NEED to do any of that, I felt like a person to him and it's appreciated. I cannot put into words how scary having pneumonia has been for me

Ooooh I want to show yall what blood thinners do when they shoot them into your belly

I don't really understand why I got blood thinners. On some sort of test they had signs that I had blood clots but that could have also been because my body was so damn stressed out trying to breathe. It was just precautionary