I need to let it out

I’m exhausted. I’m mentally done. I’m stressed out and it’s getting so bad to the point where I’m sad most of the time and it’s taking a big toll on my health. I get lightheaded, I get chest pains,stomach pain, etc

I though about writing a suicide note but For some reason I wanted to vent here and try to talk about it. I couldn’t write it just yet

I am so done. I try everything to make me happy and bring myself out this funk I’m in and I’m tired. I can’t take it no more. For almost the last 2 month I been gone. I hate my life. I’m trying to keep it together and not lose myself but I can’t take it anymore. I feel like One last straw and I’m gonna take it to that point. I hold everything in and try to be strong. I always check up on my friends make sure they okay and they are mentally okay as well too but I notice as I distance my self no one is there to ask me if I’m okay. No one is there when I need them to be. I’m alone and that’s okay. I’ll keep it together until I can’t anymore.