I can’t have an orgasm

I am 21 and a guy has never made me have an orgasm (I've slept with 5 guys) . i can make myself orgasm, thats not a problem. But I'm at the point where I want a sexual partner to make me orgasm. When i talk about it with my friends, I get so embarrassed. When having sex, i tell them what to do but I still wont have an orgasm. Sometimes, we do solo masturbation and i still wont orgasm. I don't know what to do at this point. Is it me? I was raped at 17 (first time) and i thought this might have affected the way i am with other guys but I'm

not sure 🥺