I just need somewhere to vent a little, and kinda type our my feelings for a minute 😅

So, im 7 weeks PP with baby girl #2. I just got the green light last week from my doc to have sex again, but let me tell ya my sex drive has been sooo low. From the exhaustion of night feedings? Or the long days with a crazy toddler and needy newborn? Probably 🥴😴 it makes me feel like such a shit partner though. My man (baby daddy) has been soo patient and understanding (so he says) but I just feel so bad for him. Ever since I was about 35 weeks pregnant up till 6 weeks PP we hadn't had any sex. Not even any "sexual favors" have been givin. I felt so much pain in the last weeks of pregnancy and then having to wait the first 6 weeks after, it just didbt happen. So finally we get the green light and I finally give it to him (cause I know he's wanted it soo bad) but damn it hurt so bad! 😫 seriously felt like a Virgin all over again. But honestly, I just havnt felt into it. I just stopped bleeding maybe 2 weeks ago (5 wks PP) and I have had an odor down there, which makes me feel soo unattractive. I've actually lost 25 lbs since giving birth but surprisingly I still feel gross in the sense of not feeling sexy enough 😔 ugh, just been having the hardest time with anything sexual. And since its been so long for my man it makes me feel even worse. I know it will get better (hopefully) but I don't see when. My man says he understands that it's nothing he can really control. Sometimes he thinks I'm just not attractive to him, but obviously that's not the case. Like tonight, he tried to "get me in the mood" but I quickly turned him down and it definitely put him in a funk for the rest of the night. I tell him it's not him, it's just me and my hormones and this body I'm not to fond of, and he says he understands. But I can tell it still makes him upset. And then we kinda just go our separate ways in bed as I feed the baby and put our toddler to sleep. He works in the morning so he just turns over and goes to sleep 😕 ugh, I feel like such a bitch lol I'm just hoping it gets better sooner rather then later.

Anybody else in the same boat?