Breastfeeding

Just want to vent about how I feel. It was a struggle in the beginning to get my baby to latch. When he did it was so painful. Sometimes id cry but still continue because I wanted him to be breastfed. I was giving him both formula & breastmilk for like a week or 2. Afterwards I just started giving him breast milk only. From breast & bottle. He’s 3 months now & its gotten so much better. The bonding is amazing. It feels good to feel like your child needs you to eat. breastfeeding is an amazing bonding moment. Last week I changed his diaper & there was blood in it. I took him to the ER & the results all came back negative. Today we went to his appointment & was told its a milk allergy. I have to stop breastfeeding for a week & not consume any dairy to see if the blood goes away completely. (Btw I forgot to mention he only bled in 3 diapers the day we went to the ER. Stopped bleeding until like 2 days ago. He bled again again in his poop. Only in 1 diaper).

I didn’t plan to breastfeed forever obviously but I wanted to stop on my own terms so to be told I can’t feed him from my breast, really saddened me. Ik its only for a week but I guess because of the hormones I feel so sad.