I recently bought my first study bible. It has the notes already in it. But I'm going to be honest I've been in churches my entire life but I haven't ever taken notes or studied. I originally wanted one with lines to take notes inside. but it also the previous. Notes what are they for? Is to compare to your own? Last year I was going through something mentally and emotionally and trying to study and learn. But I didn't quite grasp onto the true meaning of anything. I also would watch sermons on YouTube. But again I grasped onto differently. I was going through something that was super stressful that added to the stress of covid. I would just google scriptures based on how I was feeling or what I wanted and how to get it. Well I'm currently homeless with my mom sister and niece. And at that time me and my mom were sleeping In a tent in my Aunt's backyard. So pretty stressful. So I'd google s scripture and like "yeah that makes sense"... But it didn't help... I'd google s sermon. "Yeah that makes sense"... Nothing changed. i kept a graditude journal & a prayer journal. And nothing helped I went to church nothing helped. But God has been blessing us and I'm missing them. We're currently in a room and waiting for housing. When we first got here I had anexity like "this is free I don't want to go back to that tent or dang I don't want to get comfortable" and it was so bad I kept feeling like no one understood what I was going through. And I still get that feeling. My mom was with me the entire time. But that didn't help because she's so strong and it seemed as if it wasn't phasing her. But it was she didn't show it. I recently started getting back on social media. now I'm nervous or anxious reading God's word I know it's Nothing but the Enemy and I bind him in the name of Jesus. I know God's thoughts are like 🤯. I think I just need a bible study group 🤦🏾‍♀️Or something. I recently started getting on TikTok and Christin TikTok looks so fun. But I don't know how they studied the Word and came on one accord.