Trying so hard not to be disappointed

Ellesha

So I woke up this morning and caved and did a test. I am 12dpo. I did one on 9dpo and it was clearly negative. Yesterday at 11dpo I did another and I thought I saw a vvvvfl. This morning it looked totally negative.

I’m so upset that I’m out this month again. I know it’s only our 3 month ttc but I really thought I was positive this month. I’ve had so many symptoms and still have some too. I’ve had cramping since 6dpo, my boobs have been so sore, I’ve had nausea, headaches, heart burn, a couple of pimples which I never get, I’ve been tired and cranky too. My boobs are still sore today. I ask tmi had yellowish creamy cm this morning too.

I just don’t know what to do anymore. I am tracking with opk and I’ve been getting peak after 2 days of high. Anyone with any suggestions or advice?