14dpo BFN

I tried so hard not to test this morning but I caved and did. To my disappointment it was a BFN! I really thought we had done it this month. I have had so many symptom. Sore boobs, nausea, tiredness, bloating, sore back, headaches, reflux and dizziness.

This morning when I did the test, when I wiped I saw brown tinge to my cm. I’ve had that a couple of times over the past 2 days when I’ve wiped. I am just assuming that AF on its way??? I’m technically not due until Tuesday.

I’ve spent the morning crying. It’s so hard to not feel like a failure. I know we have been trying for only 3 months and it’s not over until AF shows up. But I just don’t know if I can keep going through this every month. How do people do this?