You're unattractive when you cry

My dog died today. I've had him for 9 years and he was my emotional support buddy. My girlfriend said "Your unattractive when you cry". She said in her home men are supposed to be men and not cry.and that I'm supposed to be her protector and I can't protect her if a get vulnerable. Her dad and brothers are fucking psychopaths so maybe that's why she thinks that... Idk it just hurt and I tried not to cry but I loved Clutch so much...