Chronic illness

Has anyone else felt like they don’t wanna get diagnosed and then it be an “easy” fix. I feel like when my doctor finally listens and I get diagnosed I don’t want it to be easily fixed by a pill. Now saying that I am in no way saying I want to be ill or not be able to live a “normal” life, what I mean is if it’s as easy as a pill to fix me then why have I had to struggle all these years, why couldn’t they just listen and fix me before so I could live a normal childhood. If I get diagnosed and it’s a simple fix that’s great but it would also piss me off. I have been fighting doctors all my life that wouldn’t listen because I’m young and a female so why couldn’t they have just listened before. I hope this makes sense and let me know if you have ever felt this way. No hate please