Pregnant and feeling alone.

So I’m pregnant with my miracle baby and the experience with my bf is Completely different from what I could ever imagine. My bf and I have only had sex like 4 times since I found out, He never Initiates it and when I do he says ok But he will end up falling asleep.

He always compliments other girls, telling me how the other guys at wrk want his pretty co worker. 🙄 so I’ve started breaking out it looks bad now. I was watching a vlog & he goes “is that her skin? her skin is so clear & her body doesn’t even look pregnant just a big butt” (he’s a butt man) I just said yea she’s a pretty lady. But deep down it made me feel bad. He saves tons of ig models etc to his phone & I always sees him watching girls sexy stories on fb but when I try to send him a sexy video of me & pics with me done up he doesn’t respond. I asked him did u get it the next night and he goes yea”

I told him I hadn’t heard u say I look beautiful in a while and he goes I do tell u! One day he was staring at me and I go what and he goes u have dry skin or something and I say yea the baby has my skin like this and he just goes wow okay. I can’t even look him in the eyes after that cause I didn’t want him noticing my flaws.

It hasn’t always been like this but now when I try to vent to him about how we don’t spend time or any problems he dismisses my feelings. He avoids anything that I wanna get off my chest concerning us. he says he doesn’t want to have any conversation that’s gonna disturb his peace.

His response to everything is your painting me to be the bad guy you alway have a problem. I try to call it off cause I just felt like this man doesn’t want me anymore but he always says no I want us to be together but he doesn’t show me that. I know he’s not sticking around cause I’m pregnant cause he has other younger kids. But why stay with me and not put effort.

When we argue he tells me I don’t even wanna come home now then he sleeps on the couch even if I say just sleep with me my body aches he says only if your not gonna complain about everything & be nice. (Nice meaning me not bringing up any issues.)

Also he has ADHD I did some research to see if it had any relation to how he responds to me, I mean a lot of the list sounded like his ways and how he goes about things so I try to not give him a hard time but it’s making me depressed and I feel very unattractive and alone.