Everyone is pregnant and had no issues TTC!

RR • Together since 2009 | Married since 2014 | 3 M/C`s | MTHFR | Rainbow baby born 07/02/17💗 #2 Due 12/21/20!!
You guys! I didn't know I could be such a horrible human! A lot of my girlfriends got married this last year and now they're all pregnant. Between 5 and 8 months along. 
I just found out another girlfriend is pregnant (they just got married 2 months ago) and here I am nearly 2 years into marriage with 2 miscarriages and thousands of negative pregnancy tests under my belt. 
I can't help but feel like "why?! Why couldn't I get pregnant first!" Instead of "yay! You're having a baby!"  
I'm 3 weeks into a miscarriage where my HCG isn't dropping and the spotting hasn't stopped. Finding out that yet another girlfriend is expecting just crushed me. I hate being such an a-hole and not putting my sh*t aside to be happy for them :-( ughh
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