Please don’t judge me…

I really really don’t like my boobs. They make me feel so insecure and less womanly. I have zero cleavage because they’re not big enough to make any. I always wear push up bras to try to make them look bigger (I’m a size 32/34A) but I can’t even wear certain tops or bathing suits because it’ll just look stupid on me. My boyfriend says he likes them but I’m pretty sure he’s just being nice.

I would like to start saving money up for a boob job. I talked to my mom about it and she disapproves. I’m 19 and she says that I should give my body more time to develop and grow. She said she used to be my size but after kids that changed. I know she wants the best for me but I don’t think she genuinely feels my pain or how much I cry about it because I don’t feel beautiful or feminine. Should I follow her advice and try to hope for the best or should I start saving now? How long should I wait to try to pursue this procedure?