Just sharing my feelings feel free to comment ..nothing NEGATIVE PLEASE!

I feel like after being with my soon to be baby father for 3 years in an on an off relationship , know is that I realize that he was the worst choice as a partner , I'm 16week & 5 days pregnant & have only seen him once since l found out ..  & when we did see each other that one time he expected everything to be normal like nothing had happen he wanted hug and kisses & I'm the bad one if I argue , if I tell him what's wrong it's a problem ,I feel like he avoid seeing me face to face , over text message and phone calls he Is super sweet tells me that We should move in together he tells me everything i want to hear or that  during the week he wants , the week goes by and I don't see him , the next week he'll tell me we could go to dinner Wednesday & Thursday and he won't see me ... I'm tired of telling him the same things all over and over again!!!  I'm sad, i cry a lot , I rather be sleeping I only get up to go to work ,  Im anxious , I'm afraid,I feel bad everyday I feel like I have no support , I feel like everyday that goes by my love for him fades ...... And to make everything worse for me I haven't told my parents and I have my reasons why , probably if I speak to them everything will get better but when they ask me for him , I would like him to show he's face too...
His words don't match his actions .....
 
Below are some of he's text messages I look like the bad person when you see them ...(his messages are green ) 
 
I try sometimes & even when I do try it's pointless!