Trying not to be so sad.

Heather • So excited, expecting our rainbow baby March 2017
I had a miscarriage 11/3 at nine weeks..stopped bleeding and levels were back to normal by 11/7. My husband and I started ttc again right away. Tracked my ovulation, started back on conceive easy and doing the bd every other day.. I was hoping and praying I'd get pregnant again right away.. I've have a really bad cold which was my first symptom with my first born, my boobs are sore, my appetite has gotten bigger..I really thought/hoped I was prego..but I wake up Today and I'm spotting :( my periods are always irregular and I know a mc can throw it off even more but glow doesn't show me having a period for two more weeks.. Such a disappointment.. I want a baby more than anything in the world.. I was on cloud nine when I find out I was prego after a year of trying then just to lose it..felt like my heart was ripped out..I just want this to happen quickly, I want to feel my rainbow baby grow inside me and feel it move and hold it and love it..I'd do and give anything to have a baby.. I'm so sad and emotional.. :(