Healing

Backstory: We are both 25 and have been off and on since grade school. We dated others in between breaks and he has a 4 year old son. I been in the son life since he was 7 months old. We lived together since his son was young. I’m currently 8 months pregnant it’s my first and we’re having a girl.

Story time: I have forgiven him over and over. He found old stuff in my phone that was nothing compared to what he was doing. He was upset for a few weeks back in January. 9 months ago started making up excuses to break up and saying he is heartbroken because I touched the bank account without permission. He is acting so hurt over something so small. It was like he was waiting for any mistake to leave. I think he cheated but he claimed it was only texting women when I ignored him. I only had sex with him the past 3 years can’t say the same for him.

Fast forward: He want all his cake and eat it too. He wants me to be open to sex while saying he is single. He text other people already. I love him but currently have my guard up. To many red flags for me to trust him again. He is definitely a liar !

Did he just want to be single or is he really hurt?

I didn’t expect to go through a pregnancy halfway alone with a man I been with my whole life.

Pros: he takes care of me financially

Cons: lie, cheat, manipulative