I used my strength against my husband...

I have always been a strong girl. Stronger than the average girl. Taller than the average girl. I'm 6'2. A lot of short guy don't want to date girls taller and stronger then them and a lot of tall girls don't want to date short guys. My husband is 5'6. I've never tried to make him feel inferior and have never used my strength against him until yesterday. My husband is in therapy and takes medication for his PTSD. There has been a lot going on the past month. Just some person from his past is triggering severe PTSD. Last night he had a full mental break down and was trying to cut himself in the bathroom. I couldn't talk him down so i ended up putting my hands in him pinning him down. He was crying and this was the first time I used my strength against him. We haven't talked about it today, but I feel like a bad wife.