UPDATE 2!! Do you look through your husbands phone

For those who commenting I have more to add

My husband has had a history of messaging other women, we went to counseling for it and at the time the counselor stated in order for me to heal if I need to look on his phone I can

This was years ago and since I’ve tried to not be so caught up with seeing him on his phone, it was super unhealthy how I became obsessed with looking at his phone. Well recently he got a new phone and has been sleeping with it under his pillow, doesn’t leave it out, basically takes it everywhere. He has pictures of our son and us and he just sends them to me through text.

All those past feelings are literally all coming back, I feel weird asking him for me to even see his phone because I don’t want for him to think I don’t trust him….. The trust was definitely broken before and he’s worked hard to make things better but it’s like I get triggered and now I’m stuck in a place where I don’t want to go back to that obsession of looking at his stuff ugh 😣

UPDATE: he went on a run in our neighborhood and left his phone in his car…. Not in the house 🧐 now I don’t know if I want to ask to see it in front of him or try to snag it at some point and dig deeper… so fucking unhealthy I know but I’m getting these feelings back and I was right before.

UPDATE 2 EVEN MORE SUSPICIOUS 🤨: still have not addressed anything yet. He has an old phone that he still uses to track his fitness app, within the few hours at some point he deleted all of his social media on this old phone!!! This is suspicious right!? I know this because guilty I was looking at it every now and then, he went to the store right now and is charging it so I looked and his Instagram, fb, fb messager is deleted