Should I contact my dad?

Long story that I'll try to make short.

Dad was absent from me being 2 to around 5. At that time he came back, married my step mom and had another baby within the year. I was around per my court ordered visitation schedule until I was 13 and ended visitation and moved away due to emotional abuse and years of trauma. I tried to connect at 21 before I got married and graduated college. Things were great until he stood me up and refused to tell anyone he was talking to me.

I reconnected with my cousin this year and found out they are getting a divorce. I know my dad wasn't perfect and honestly wasn't even a great dad, but I do believe most of our issues were due to my step mom constantly instigating.

I also found out that he had covid at some point in the last year. He also lost his mom/my grandma suddenly and wasn't there for her death.

Last night I was at my moms and found a Polaroid of us when I was around 2, must have been before he left. I want so badly to have a father, to see if he has changed and would be more welcoming to have me in his life since he is now getting divorced. My husband probably won't be supportive of it, because he saw the hurt it put me through last time, and I understand where he's coming from.

I've haven't forgotten, but I have forgiven the past. I know my worth and wouldn't let him take that from me ever again. But I'm 26, it's been 13 years since he's even laid eyes on me. I just want to see if there is still any hope.

Should I take the chance?