I don’t want to work…I feel lost..and depressed.

I wish I could travel with my significant other and yet do something that’s flexible for me. I see it all the time with Family members of mine. And social media. These people are going to Disney world every weekend or are traveling to places all the time. I work 5 days a week for most of my day. And I hate it. I can’t go on vacation because i don’t get vacation time until next summer..The weekends go by too quickly and I get sick a lot which doesn’t help my anxiety disorder..This week I currently have the worst ear infection that won’t go away and I can’t even call in for that..this may sound so stupid but I feel lost… I feel extra emotional and depressed. Maybe because my period is due anyway now..idk what to do..