Feeling down.

Before pregnancy I was very little and in shape, lately I just feel so blah and gross it’s got me in such a funk, I catch myself thinking things like I wonder if my husband is grossed out by me or if he thinks I’m huge, and that Im just not pretty or attractive anymore. I don’t know if it’s just me seeing myself that way or if I really look big, i have def gained weight and it’s eating me alive, even though my doctor said I haven’t gained too much at all. I feel like it’s just hormones and I try to push out of it but I still feel so down, I fantasize about working out after baby non stop, I’m afraid I’m not letting myself enjoy this. Just a rant, no hate please, I’m already going through it.