Failed IVF yesterday :( Out of 10 eggs, 9 mature and 6 fertilized but none made it to day 5. Age 44

For three years we have been TTC with no luck. I’ve passed every fertility test with flying colors. AMH of 1.8, had two HSG and tubes are open with no uterine problems. I cycle like clockwork, every 28 days. Get peak and high fertility days on the clearblue digital. I have had all hormones checked, everything was fine. We did genetic blood tests and we have no genetic issues that would be causing this. We quit alcohol, coffee, processed foods, took prescription meds like Clomid, took expensive meds like CQ10 and other Theralogix meds prescribed by our RE. Been seeing the RE for two years and hysteroscopy last month to prime the lining.

So I responded great to the IVF meds and triggered 10 days into treatment, retrieved 10 eggs and 9 were mature. 6 fertilized with ICSI and then NONE made it to blast stage day 5. They all died by day 3.

Our RE said no further treatment. I have two kids from my 20’s with my first husband but I really wanted a child with my new husband. We have spent $30k on our fertility journey to get to this dead end.

Just got the call yesterday and the dr told me there is no medical intervention left to do at this point. He said the egg quality goes down with age and risks of chromosome abnormalities go up and those factors along with failed IVF just doesn’t make sense to go forward: he said in the nicest way to move on unless we wanted to adopt an embryo which is cheaper than egg donation but we literally cannot afford these fertility solutions.

At this point I’m trying to see any silver lining there could be but it’s hard. Thanks for listening. Good luck on your baby journey. I truly do not believe that all hope is lost for those of us TTC against all odds. I had 100% faith that this would work.