We found out recently that my husband has non/obstructive azoospermia which means there’s no correcting it. Our only options are donor sperm or adoption and he’s not on board with either. I have always dreamed of this huge family of my own and envisioned this life with him. I love him so much and definitely don’t want to divorce, however, all I think about is having a baby and raising a family of our own. He’s stern in his decision to not go the donor route and said it’s either me and him, or I can move on and have a baby without him. Well that’s not what I want, I want a family with him. I even offered to use a donor egg to make it feel more equal because I strongly believe that it’s the nurturing and how we would parent that would make up for how things go. Any advice? I’m truly torn and confused. Oh forgot to mention, everyone is always asking us “what are we waiting on to have kids?”. And seeing everyone around be pregnant and with families is bittersweet. I really don’t know what to do…. No matter how I try to forget it, I can’t. I have baby names and shower themes already picked out😩.