I have to vent

I’ve posted before about my husband. Sometimes I feel this is my only outlet to vent.

He and I are still hitting some rough patches in our marriage; literally only been married less than a year. He has 50/50 custody of his kids and a great co-parenting relationship with his ex. But sometimes it crosses the line. It’s gotten better but there’s still one major issues; they share a bank account. I’ve asked numerous times for this to get fixed and it falls on deaf ears. I’ve even talked to his ex about it. She called one because I went to my parents for a few days to clear my head after a huge fight. All this did was give me false hope and then she used it against me and STILL hasn’t removed herself out of the bank account. She bitches all the time when he buys me or my daughter something and honestly for the most part we split everything. He never did this in his previous marriage, why with me.

Before we got married I knew most of this but was promised it’d be fixed. I should have never budged on my feelings or values and I did. I don’t know what to do. It’s hard bc I love his kids so much and my daughter calls him Dad. She’s only 2 so I know she wouldn’t remember this if things went south.

We are supposed to try some marriage counseling to see if it’ll help but I just don’t know. I’m mentally tapped and physically tired. He’s done a lot of crappy things finances-wise that I’ve just kind of grown bitter to. I’ve tried talking to someone but haven’t been able to get back due to work/kids. I don’t get much of a chance to take “me” time out.

I also just lost my job yesterday so my anxiety is super high because I know she’ll have allllll the comments in the world about it. I asked him not to tell her but he talks to her about everything so who knows. He says he’s got me and my daughter and won’t let us fall but I just don’t know.

Thanks in advance for listening.