Stressed out over cervix checks

I’m 11 days now from having to be induced. I have had sex three times in the last week, been trying nipple stimulation, bouncing on ball and walking as much as I can tolerate. I was 1cm dilated last week at 36 weeks and am now 37 weeks 3 days. This is my last baby (fourth) and I really want to go into labor naturally. But I feel like I keep getting let down with the cervix checks and now I’m going in to get checked again and feel like if I’m at 1cm I’m going to start bawling. My dr also won’t call the hospital to set the induction date until I’m more dilated. Sorry for the rant I’m just so worried my body is going to let me down 😭😭