Just found out my three year old son is on the spectrum, I also have a nursing one year old daughter who is seeming more attached then usual, I’ve been a single mom since she was born and obviously my son has been a lot to handle.. their dad didn’t believe the baby was his so he was never around, his family only came by like three times to see my son, in the past almost two years.. their dad was sent child support but we’ve never seen anything from him, he gave us like 200 but asked for 100 back.. then I was gonna send my son to go live with them but my case workers pushed me to take him back after he’s been there for two weeks because they don’t know his medical records and we were in the process of therapy and paediatric doctors.. I have a mother’s to be mentor because I was an alcoholic and tried to give up my babies once she was born.. but they’ve really helped me, I’m sober, have my own home and kids will be in daycare next month.. I just help but feel sad that their dad and his family got mad that I took my son back, I told them what was going on they just said “delete my number” and I asked if they could bring my sons belongings back they said no because they will flip out on me if they see me.. so I just blocked all of them but I’m sad.. because it’s just me and my babies.. my family lives an hour away.. my brother works two jobs and is always busy.. now their dad and his family don’t want to help anymore.. I feel like they don’t love my babies because I’m their mother.. Im exhausted.. Im tired of fighting and I just want to live life.. but it’s hard when your alone with two babies that dont even talk.. I don’t even date because I’m not ready.. I’m scared to leave the house alone with two babies on my own.. will it get easier when their in daycare I’m scared to feel even more lonelier and go back into my depression where I didn’t want to talk to anyone online or go outside to throw the trash out or clean my house.. :(