That something went very wrong this week.

Haven't felt baby move all week. After strong, and powerful movements (this is my 4th pregnancy, third baby). Then just... nothing.

Scheduled appointment is Tuesday so just waiting until then to hear a heartbeat.

Maybe.

Would have gone in days ago to hear heartbeat, but it dumped snow then immediately dropped below -0°. My husband needed help this week processing firewood so we can keep up with orders, which will pay our bills. Also heat our home. And put gas in my tank to be able to make the trip into town. We are already set back so far because we're paying out of pocket for this baby. Medicaid truly fucked us.

Worry consumes me at this point.

I've caught myself stopping any twinge of excitement cause I don't want to be more hurt than I already feel if we get bad news.