Struggling with the bump

I’m 18 weeks pregnant with my second child. I was 10 lbs heavier than I was before I got pregnant with my first when I found out I’m pregnant now. I had a c section with my first so I feel like that doesn’t help. I have a little of belly hanging before getting pregnant and now I feel like my bump isn’t even there. It only looks like I’m pregnant when I have certain clothes on and I put on maternity pants. Otherwise, I just look like I’m getting fatter. The top of my belly sticks out and the rest looks flat? It looks like a darn square. I’m so insecure about it because it really does only look like I’m gaining weight and I don’t have a regular baby bump. With my first I loved my bump but with this one I’m struggling with my self image. I also have an anterior placenta so I haven’t even felt any flutters or movement. I know it’s still early and things can change but right now I’m just sad...