I have huge phobia and anxiety over nudity in shows, movies, games when it comes to watching it with my partner..( we don’t watch anything like that it’s just the “ if” thought ).. it’s so bad it’s hurting my relationship with him, he is so sweet and so patient with me. He doesn’t care for it and doesn’t watch anything that contains it. But the thought just makes me feel so angry and so sad.. it’s so hard for me to get over this. Almost Everything has nudity or women showing too much.. idk if this got so bad because I gained weight? ( Its not as bad but I still gained) I was much more secured when I was thinner but now everything just gets to me. I always think women are pretty and wouldn’t really get bothered by it if it’s not as bad but now just the thought of my partner looking at anyone just hurts.. how do I get over this? How do I help myself? 🥺 I don’t want to lose the best relationship bc of this horrible feeling 😭 and I’ve also seen online that there’s people who feel just like I do.. like this post..

I was hurt in the past, my ex would show me screenshots of that nasty website to upset me & another ex I caught him lysine to me and watching it. But that was when I was 16 years old.. I’m now 21 & my boyfriend is 25.. he doesn’t care about those things he has other things in mind like family, his education and me.. but the thought it just gets me to.. I guess cause he watched games of thrones w ( years ago ) his family even tho they skipped it.. when I found out what that show had it just got to me so bad.. and it made me feel anxious about everything even tho he doesn’t watch anything like that … 😔😔😔 I feel like I can’t live like this it’s misery and so terrible..

I don’t even know how to find a good therapist or whatever 😔😔😔