Crossing Everything! 🤞🤞🤞

I got my first bfp at 11dpo and have tested everyday since because I just can't help myself! I had my hcg levels done at 14dpo (Tuesday) and they came back at 83 which is perfectly normal, I go back tomorrow (48hours from the first) to see if they have doubled! 🤞🤞

I have had a healthy baby, miscarriage, healthy baby, miscarriage, healthy baby. 💙👼💜👼💜 My pattern has me super worried although my doctor assures me that there is no proven evidence to say that patterns with pregnancies exist. But I can't help but think that this pregnancy is due to end in a miscarriage and I just know that I can't go through one of them again. Obviously super blessed to have my current babies.

Every time I go to the toilet I just hope there is no blood in my undies or when I wipe. I hate that it is all out of my control and there is nothing I can really do to increase the chances of a good outcome. Driving myself absolutely crazy!

I'm not sure on the point of this post, kinda just venting my thoughts!