8dpo and I’m hurting what am I doing wrong

Shalamar

I had a miscarriage back in September. For 2 months I haven’t have a period but I was ovulating.

The doctors said it was normal everything is fine.

Tomorrow (the 29th) I have an appointment to see my specialist hopefully I get some news.

I took a test tonight and it giving me less hope. I just want to cry and give up. I feel like I am doing something wrong or my body hates me.