Pregnant again

Hi mommas. Let me start off by saying I LOVE my little man to death and would do anything for him.

With that being said I just found out I’m expecting baby #2-we are not financially able to care for a second nor do I have the mental compactly at this point (my 18 month old still doesn’t sleep though the night)

Yes I want 1 more in the future but right now is just NOT the time.

Has anyone has an abortion after having already having a child? How do you deal with the guilt? The feeling of failure? The feeling that you’re destroying your life??